Sigh

Ever had a day where everything little thing is fucked up from the moment you woke up? Even before you wake up, there's already a shitstorm brewing just across your face. Can't get adequate sleep because some motherfucker who can't feed his own addiction taking all the puffs that are rightfully yours. Then you fail to wake up for lunch because of the former disturbance. So you decided to go to the mamak and order "roti telur" but you couldn't finish it. Halfway through, the fucker above called and said,

"Eh buy cigs eh, we share."

Then you'll go,

"Macibai I buy you one la, fuck."

Your own fucking addiction, you feed it yourself you son of a bitch.

Then you go get changed for class and drove to school, waiting for the fucking van to show up under the burning sun. When you reach the lab, there's only four souls there with a half-assed albeit very nice teacher (gave us literally the whole set of "tips" for the upcoming exam). The mood itself in the lab is dragging you down into an abyss of depression so deep you can't see the bottom of the pit.

Then your friend calls you reminding you of an interview for a goddamn job in the next PC Fair and you went expecting nothing but just faux-interviews where they line you up, see if you're handsome enough and let you pass. But turned out the interview is not as easy as made out to be. To find out you got the job but your friend didn't leaves an empty void in your expectations. You'll most probably have to go alone.

When you get home after the grueling KL meat traffic, you go to a chinese restaurant and find out their Iced Milk Tea tastes like shit. I mean, how the fuck can you fuck up such a simple drink, right?!?! After the meal and RM9 poorer, you get home and find your self proclaimed best friend lying again. Then you realised why you call your current best friends your best friends. It's because they would never lie to you, even though they are not as nice.

While your friend is repairing your fucking cheap PC, you played his PC and got 400K points for Bejeweled Blitz, and came to the realization that you only got that high score cause you were lucky, not because of your skill. Soon, you started preparing for the upcoming test the next day, only to find that you can't get that shit inside your head no matter how hard you try. You then decided to call it a day and sleep, but you couldn't sleep.

It's days like these that makes you just wanna say,




"Fuck it, fuck this and fuck you. Fuck all of this shit. Fuck all these. I just wanna go out destroy something beautiful. Walk to the fucking park waiting for people to trip and fall just to laugh at them. Maybe go to some group therapy sessions and just listen to their sad stories to make me feel better about myself. Fuck this mid life depression. And again, fuck you."

So back to the main question, ever had a day like this?